Information I need but wish I didn’t know
The good news is that all of my tests came back normal so I am ready for surgery on Wednesday. The bad news is I am so nervous and worried, even though everyone says this is as good as it can be and I know it is. In fact, I even say it myself and believe it to be true. I still feel nervous. What you believe and what you feel are obviously two different things!
Yesterday I had a consultation appointment with Dr. James D Kolker at PA Hospital. This is his title from the internet: Chief, Section of Radiation Oncology, Pennsylvania Hospital; Medical Director, CyberKnife. I cannot tell you how nice he was and how much time he took explaining to Norman and me about the procedure, the process, the what ifs, the alternatives, etc. He answered all my questions and more so. His resident and nurse did too. It was an amazing visit of over 2 hours! What doctor spends that much time with you today?? I was stunned and impressed. Not only is he knowledgeable and very capable but he is so kind and friendly.
My learning curve of information I need, but wish I did not know, is rising steadily.
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Congrats on test results. Sounds like you’re in great hands. And by the way, I’d be extremely nervous, too. Just shows you’re human!
thanks again tom.
You and Norman are special and he realized it. Feel how you feel since that is real but know in your mind and soul that it wll be good with God’s help. We are all with you and you are in our prayers, mind and heart.
thanks gail for your kind words and prayers.
It’s very encouraging to know that there are still doctors around who take time with their patients and answer all questions! It is so true that what we believe can be so different from what we feel, for all us humans. Not all of us however admit it as honestly as you do… Sending love and hugs.
Oh Linda, you are in my heart and my prayers, you are truly a very remarkable person, especially so brave – hang in there and thanks for sharing your story. Sounds like you will be just fine, hope and pray and love, Lois
thanks lois!